Everyone around me is moving on and I've been in the same place for years. I fear I will be left alone beyond the date of August 14th. That's probably a good thing, I've been hating people a lot lately anyway. I honestly feel that everyone around me is a fake, with the exception of about 3 people not including myself. Everyone is full of shit, pardon my french. So full of it to the point that most days I don't even want to go out or talk to anyone. My recent cause of annoyance comes in the case of people trying too hard. "We used to get along just fine, now I feel you get annoyed with me". Yes. Maybe because before, back in your days of youth, you were cool. You were just fun to be around because you never worried about fitting in or which music was cool these days or how your jeans look on you. We worried about not having enough money for slurpees, how long our feet would stand the heat of cement, we worried about ants, about upcoming movie releases, about escaping pretend prisons, about making your cerfew. Now it's all about looking in a mirror, "is this shirt too small", not getting replies to texts so sending them again because you're paranoid im ignoring you, wondering about sex, drinking, smoking, new styles, always wanting approval and trying to complain about things you think are cool to complain about but in reality you know nothing about because for all you know you are the root of the problem. I want to go back to the simpler days. I want you both to get along. Neither of you is better than the other at all because neither of you are cool and you know it.

I apologize for my bluntness but like I said, I'm not a fan of people at the moment. I'm just in a weird mood and one day I will find the medical term for what ails me. A little known fact about myself is that I like to google social disorders and mental illnesses because I'm a big fan of self diagnosing. I know there is something wrong with me mentally but my mother says I'm just bored. She's probably right.